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NEW LIVEJOURNAL [23 Jan 2005|07:30pm]
[ mood | full ]

everyone who sees this and has not already added me...go to http://www.livejournal.com/users/postaljuicebox. it's my new Livejournal and it's AMAZING.

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new el jay [06 Jan 2005|09:59am]
[ mood | bored ]

new LJ: http://www.livejournal.com/users/postaljuicebox

have fun. on this snow day.

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i wrote, this song... [04 Jan 2005|11:07pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

lyrics...and read them...and tell me if they're good...because i want to rawk =)Collapse )

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results [03 Jan 2005|10:39pm]
[ mood | blah ]

You scored as Upper middle Class. Your determination have soared you this high, yet not high enough to enjoy the luxuries of the upper class. Your most valued posession is your country club membership which is kept framed in the office.


Upper middle Class


Luxurious Upper Class


Middle Class




Lower Class


What Social Status are you?
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You scored as Mushrooms. Shrooms! You're still goin for one of the most natural drugs. You'd like to visit a whole other world, and see things you've never seen before. Fucking trippy.
















What's your ideal drug?
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.... [01 Jan 2005|12:07am]
[ mood | blank ]

i think emo has destroyed people's attitude for other people's sadness.

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random quiz becuz new years sux [31 Dec 2004|10:55am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Some quiz you could or could not take Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

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new years...already? [31 Dec 2004|07:07am]
[ mood | thirsty ]

no one has commented on my pics >.> whatever, people.

so last day of the year? 2004 is OVER in five hours. i have no plans really, which is a major drag but i wish i did. me and my cuz are supposed to go over to brigitte's house but i dunno if we are. hopefully.

this year has been an odd year. i had my first big heartbreak even though i wuz never with the person i had a crush on. i started to not be so self-concious. i became real close with brig and x-teen. i wrote two books. i messed around with someone that one of my friend's really cared about. i got high all summer long. i decided that prep wuz not so bad. i fell in lust with emo. i fell in lust with like, too many people--they varied from all types of people o_O. i lost good friendships with liz and such. i became angrier. i became happier. i realized i wuz nearly a drug-addict.

i want this year to be good. i want to kiss someone. i want to go out with someone. i want to get good grades. i want to become cooler. i want to get published. i want to make my friends happier. i want to get in a band. i want to break someone's heart. i want someone to break my heart and then try to make up for it. i want to get a job--maybe. i want to get a car. take driver's ed first. i want to . . . be fine.

i keep playing around with my cell phone. i keep thinking of my new years resolutions. when i think about them, i'll put it in here. but now, i have to think about them.

and thank god, i'm off being wired. finally.

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drugs, drugs, drugs [30 Dec 2004|09:39am]
[ mood | sore ]

i have a puffy eye. i did not sleep last night. at all. i stayed up from 9:30 AM yesterday to 9:40 AM today. i'm still up. ahhhh. look at the pics below. becuz the bible tells me so...

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pics [29 Dec 2004|10:17pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

we were so strung out on coke. me and steevi ^___^ yes. all things are true. the rumors are real. i am a drug addict. Read more...Collapse )

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asopidwwoejadoanhsckjsbnkjiuaweotgplwer;kfnasxcas [29 Dec 2004|11:11am]
[ mood | bored ]

i come home today. last night i ate chinese food and watched kiddie movies. i talked online and got extremely bored with a lot of shit. boring boring boring time in battle creek. steevi is come home with me today. if anyone wants to meet the coolest cousin in the whole wide world, they should call me up and hang out. although, who knows if she'll wanna meet you...unless i've said good about youse.

still reading the andy warhol diaries. lots of glitz and fame. fueled by sexual frustration and parties. art and photography. nude and pop art. it's a good book. andy wuz interesting. his diary is very gossipy, but still entertaining. i'm reading it right now and i'm trying to figure out if i want to put my headphones on or not.

been there, done that. i cannot wait to go and get some argyle. something to wear. i kind of wanna go mod but i don't have nice, straight hair so i cannot do that. as much as people like my 'fro, it doesn't make me like it any better. it's like "fluff, lemme touch it" and stuff, as if i'm some exotic little creature from a different country even though i've lived in america just as long as they have. >.> hello. the only people who don't fuck with my hair is brig and x-teen and maybe someone else but i cannot think so far of them. either way. it sux. i want a new hairdo but my hair is hairdont and i have too big of a forehead to cut it all off and start over.

i know too many bisexual people. it's not a bad thing. justa fact.

random ness.


she said she wanted to cross the road. i asked her why did the chicken cross the road. she said becuz she wanted to die and become mcdonald's chicken selects. i rolled my eyes and i told her to fuck off.

im trying to CREATE my own little rag-tag group of people who are creative and artistic and just bored and funny and goodlooking and wears niceclothes and listen to goodmusic and parties allnightlong and all ofthat. i have about two people. who wants to join in the festivities?

blahblahblah. i am bored beyond belief. i smell like someone else's house. i look like shit. it's before noon. i suppose this is all acceptable.

and i am the only retard i know who listens to emo, when they are happy.

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"tres funny" [29 Dec 2004|12:33am]
[ mood | anxious ]

kilLteh p0rnstar (12:33:00 AM): charlotte is weird

a random thing. so random. so ran-fucking-dom. ha.

don't be mad, charlotte. it's just for shits n' giggles.

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sex me, vex me, complex me [28 Dec 2004|09:17pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

bend over and give me a kiss that's too fucking special so i will die. do not laugh at me. do not cry at me. you know how much i wish i could die. you are emo and your eyes are so blank. they fill with tears, not really affectious, kind of bored. and you bend over and you don't give me a kiss. you tell me i'm sweet and that's all there is.

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another song and i want you to rate it [28 Dec 2004|01:02pm]
[ mood | mellow ]

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out of this place [27 Dec 2004|01:00pm]
[ mood | awake ]

today is monday.

i do not want to go to battle creek but i have to. i dunno why we're going. i think my mum said something about seeing my cousin cheerlead. whoo-hoo. like i really wanna stare at some lame-ass dance routine for ten minutes or so. i dunno. five minutes. either way. it'll suck.

i keep on scrawling your name on my arm. it's beautiful how much you make me want to cry and you've never fully had a good conversation with me. i think of your emo eyes and your soul and how i have no idea what is your favorite color is but i'm already thinking of squeezing you cheeks and making out in the backseat of a car.

sometimes, i think of the times when i wuz younger and so foolish. when me and brig would sing on stage at lunch to spice girls music. and the lunch room would boo at us. we were so fearless. we would act the way we wanted to act. it's so queer how things were how they were. now i care so much. then, i wuz so oblivious and i loved being so free.

and sometimes i fear being older. having to deal with bills, other adults, my parents, deaths, realities, things you cannot find here in the windy, cold suburbs. i am stuck here now, in suburbia, with these beautiful houses and the quiet streets and the snotted-nose children who are so blissful. it's peaceful. i have no real responsibilities. i don't know what the real world is like. i'll never fully know. i'm a middle class suburbanite. you cannot get more sheltered.

lindsay lohan or hilary duff?

simone's got me watching "celebrity showdown" on vh1. it's so glossy. hmm. gloss rules.


If we were to meet under the mistletoe, would you kiss me?


(copy and paste this in your LJ)

pacify me with your comments, questions, and answers.

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[26 Dec 2004|08:52pm]
[ mood | moody ]

i have not felt like this in two weeks. why now?

i am enable to find someone who wants me. becuz people i want do not even want me. this is me all last year. this is me this year. even brett went out with people last year and that's not a compliment. if this is me last year and now, then that tells you something about me, huh?

i must me extremely ugly, or just personality-less, or just completely retarded for this to happen. i do not think im the ugliest thing in the world, so why would i be so unwanted? if i am going to parade around high school without someome to kiss then i might as well end my life now. there's no point going through the hell of bad-breathed teachers, latchkey children, and odd homework, without having someone to make out with in between this. there is no reason i have to deal with this. i can't make myself desirable.

if there's anything i learned from all of the books i read, the depressed people are always going to be depressed and are going to eventually try to kill themselves in the process. well, i tried, and failed. i'm done joining the ranks. i'm done being this person. that is not even cool enough to find someone to make-out with.

if being love-starved is the job of a teenager than i guess i should be ceo of the fucking company. it's tiring. it's stressful. it's not cool at all.

so here i am, lying in the darkness, with my keyboard ready for me to spill my guts, and i am listening to my spooky goth rock and trying to figure out things. i wish i just wuz able to kiss whomever i wanted for one day. my actions would probably be less life-threatening.

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apparently, these are all my loves [26 Dec 2004|05:54pm]
[ mood | okay ]

do not forget to read my entry before this ^___^

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canned heat [26 Dec 2004|03:14pm]
[ mood | drained ]

mum took me to blockbuster this afternoon. i got "napoleon dynamite" becuz i had been wanting to see that for a while and i wuz completely into it. it's such an interesting and original story about a cool dork, who is misunderstood and whose family is crazy. it reminds me of something in the 70's and then something 80's.

i want to be cool. yes, i admit that to whoever reads this godforsaken el jay. not like overly popular with people but like interesting and original and have my own thing going on and all of that lalala.

i'm reading the andy warhol diaries, which is extremely good becuz andy warhol's voice is so interesting and it almost makes me feel as if he's talking to me. i do miss him, and i wish i met him before he died. damn cancer. oh well. i promise to myself that when i get older i will buy some pop art made by him. if i get a lotta money to buy from someone.

the day after x-mas is always a drag. not much to do. you already looked all of the junk you've gotten. now, you're bored. plus, it's sunday, which is almost always the most depressing day of the week becuz everyone's off doing something and embracing their religions and i do not like religion that much, becuz everyone goes overboard on their own and thinks it's better than anyone else's. and that's not even mind-boogling.

hot hot heat has suddenly become a good good nu wave band.

i want to do something with all of these sharpies i found but i dunno what to do. just look at them? i could make pics but i think they'd look lame and stuffs. and i'm really trying to send a pic of myself to my e-mail but it's all "you don't have that yet" and blahblahblah. whatever. i'll make it work.


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a bitchen little survey [25 Dec 2004|11:26pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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my 15th x-mas [25 Dec 2004|10:38am]
[ mood | content ]

what i got for x-mas:
the o.c. mix 1 & 2
american eagle gift card
borders gift card
hollister gift card
journey's gift card
$50-limit credit card
flannel p.js.
franz ferdinand cd
the atari's "so long astoria" cd
mean girls
better luck tomorrow
hollister cologne
and A BRAND NEW CELL PHONE (if you want the number, comment me, bytch)

spoiled or not spoiled? rate me.

i'm at mum's. dad's wuz boring and blank. it wuz only us this year so it wuz like not even exciting or huggy or anything. i wuz just like, boring. mum picks me up and i come here. i'm watching "a christmas story" and it's so funny. i love this movie. reminds me of being young and wanting only one specific thing the most. ha.

"fragile--must be italian."

i'm so hungry. mum made cinnamon rolls and sausage. i must dig in.

happy x-mas to all the boys n' girls. it's a white x-mas, bytches. ;)

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the perfect way to start x-mas.... [24 Dec 2004|11:23pm]
[ mood | restless ]

The Geek - Seth

Which O.C. teen character stereotype are you?
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